I know its most probably wrong to admit but the satisfaction I get from going to the gym is not from the good Im doing to my body, more for the awesome views I get when I go. So many men with large toned, muscle filled bodies. In reality it's not the type of look I go for, I tend to be attracted to the more weedy female looking men with long messy hair but in an energy charged environment like the gym it's like culture is stripped back, us women are no longer the strong willed, independent females we've come to know and love, we are lost souls looking for a glimmer of hope, for a big strong man to come and sweep us off our feet. I try not to let it cross my mind thats these fine specimens most probably have a gorgeous leggy blonde waiting at home for them, but anything that motivates me to work harder in the gym, is a God send anyday.

Gig tomorrow night, so excited about it, been a long time since I was last in that wonderful atmosphere that is you and so many others being engulfed under the one roof of musical talent. It's a feeling like no other, my favourite past time, if you could call it that, but hey Im the sort of person who always has that really blank lonely looking area on their C.V under Hobbies and Interests. How can you possibly include "Likes to get pissed on a Saturday night and spends most Sundays trying to piece together what she done the previous night. To potential employers Im sure I sound like the wonderful trustworthy employable type. Another thing along that same road is certain individuals seem to tell me alot "oh Gillian you're so mature for you're age, so confident" etc when in reality I have no idea what Im doing, I muddle through life, taking each day as it comes and making alot of fuck ups along the way but you only have one chance at this so you got to make this most of it...